linear thinker

All my life I've tried to see myself as an unconventional thinker. I don't know where this stems from. I'm starting to believe it's from my desire to be different without really doing anything to be different. Almost like being different on the cheap side. No need to spend money on tattoos, drugs, cars, clothes, etc.. Just dazzle people with a profound statement or concept and viola, different.

I think this all started when I saw Star Trek 2 the Wrath of Kahn... Towards the end of the movie Kahn follows the crippled Enterprise into the Mutara Nebulae seeking to kill Kirk. Kirk uses the nebulae to play hide and seek with Kahn's undamaged ship hoping to level the playing field as the nebulae makes shields and sensors inoperative... Khan in his wrath only thinks in one dimension. This is when Spock politely nudges Capt. Kirk to think in a multi dimensional up-and-down basis... Being thusly inspired the Captain is able to get the jump on Kahn effectively disabling his ship, leading to Kahn's death.

From that moment on I've always thought to myself, "be a multi-dimensional thinker, not a chump like Kahn"..."An outside box thinker is better than normal thinking"...

Well after all these years it doesn't seem that i'm getting too far with this out of the box thinking. What I've learned is that people don't really like radical ideas. They want the old ways. And if I can't communicate my ideas anyhow it does me no good. My ideas and concepts are so outside the box I confuse myself even. So what do the other people think...

Anyhow the reason why I'm rambling about this stuff is that I'm onto a new paradigm shift. I figure it's about that time and I'm losing focus... Or rather i'm getting slothful. I feel myself struggling to get "fit". And by fit i want the all encompassing FIT. And by thinking how to get fit, I've come to the realization that to accomplish this goal, I will most likely have to act in a linear fashion. Short cuts or bypassing stages won't do me any good.

Go figure. All my years of trying to be a radical concept thinker leads me back to the first square I've never really gotten to. Square one. I can achieve and obtain different levels of fitness but unless I do things on a linear basis I won't truly succeed. And by truly succeed I mean to carry these things out on a long term basis. In a nutshell I want to be:

Spiritually fit
physically fit
dietary fit
mentally fit
relationally fit
financially fit

I guess I can't take the credit for these desires as the Journey is discussing some of these actions in their sermons. (see their podcasts and message notes if available, very worthwhile). This is a burden that weighs on me as I'm struggling to deal with being on the back end of middle aged as well as suffering from a growing back end...

With luck and some help from God maybe I can achieve all my goals and maintain them for the rest of my life.